The San Diego Padres are off to a 2-7 Start and are getting ready to face Clayton Kershaw. They are CLEARLY on there way to a 135 loss season and will break the long held record by the Cleveland Spiders. CLEARLY.

Okay, its also just about to be the 10th game of the season, and even if they don't turn things around, they are still my team. Leading the league, again, in strikieouts? Unaccpetable. Errors? Atrocius. The sloppy play has been unbearable, and embarassing enough to make me lose faith in this team momentarily. Funny thing about that time that I did, is that they made a comeback from 5 tuns down to tie it. Ultimately that comeback was crushed in epic fashion (four straight walks- really?) but a funny thing happened. I wasn't even that mad. Was it expected? I don't know, kinda. It was a wierd game. But they are still my team.

I've read some comments and ideas that we NEED to be more critical of the team and have more opinions about how awful this team is. I understand the frustration. But there ARE things bigger in life than a lousy baseball team. So forgive me if I choose not to fill a community fan site with vitriol and try to make sure fan posts about the joy of baseball or becoming a fan of a team aren't hijacked to say how awful fans are for being happy go lucky. I'll be critical of the team. It should be no secret that I'm not a fan , at all, of our middle infield. Again, these strikeouts...absolutely atrocious. But at the end of the day, for the fan, its still just a game. So I'm going to enjoy the wins, be frustrated by the losses, and then move on and continue to look for the positive in life and find joy.

A personal note for me- The last decade of my life, I spiraled into a pit of negativity. It was hard to find happiness or joy in anything. I basically was LOOKING for negativity in any and all situations. Sometimes I catch myself still doing it. I was encouraged by someone who became my fiance and very best friend, to look for the positives in life. I lost her to cancer in November, but I've tried to keep close the words she would enocourage me with- That you will find negativity if you look for it, but if you seek happiness, you may find joy. So I won't always succeed with that. I will be let down with hope that perhaps has been misguided, and I will have disappointments. But How I choose to deal with those disappointments is up to me, and really, where does negativity get ME?

So if you want to be hypercritical, and start writing opinion pieces here, go for it. Its your right as a fan and as a person. If you want to be upset with me for not being critical enough, be upset with me. Not going to let it bring me down though. Going to keep enjoying my team however I can, and keep looking for the positives in life.